Let the devilry dance in my eyes

Let the devilry dance in my eyes,
Let my look become full of the vice.
I no longer desire for death,
I'm a player while keeping my breath.

My intensions are melting and gone,
Time is hurrying and everything's done.
There's no use in my life, isn't there?
I will think of it, now I don't care!

I remember the scenes of my past,
Shapes of years are passing so fast,
And they look like a cinema reel
All of them are so bitter to feel.

I am smiling in spite of affliction,
Let'em think I am happy, it's fiction.
I've forgiven myself, it's the truth
For the faults from my childhood to youth

Let the smile on my face never die,
Let them all never see if I cry.
If the end of the world ever happens
Smile and devilish look are my weapons.